Continuing from Last Week -- Should the Sadhu then refuse Mythos which is his very own existence, or should he choose  now the death to which he goes step-by-step?

If he chooses to reject the myth of being what is left of him? What is felt of him? At the point of choice what causes his disappearance? Who chose what, when the existence of individual self is itself a myth?

Living a myth of selfhood, living in pure mythos, at the point of choice nothing remains of what never existed, nothing remains of him.

That Ego-death however cannot occur immediately, the connotations and effects of the choice must first permeate the entire myth which he sees as himself. That myth must be given up. Then upon release where is he who held the Myth of a self who believed in anything?

Every decision he ever made about the nature of Being must be released because unless that is done there is still one who holds to this or that, and thus the myth of selfhood and  "I-ness" continues.

At some point which is dependant upon the progress made, the knowledge of the true nature of the self begins to dawn upon the Sadhu; he begins to realize that it is never he who decides.

Here then the recognition that God is beyond anything anyone ever imagined or was able to describe to him, dawns upon the Consciousness itself. Mythos being an imagined idea or a description subscribed to, is realized to be just that -- "A description".

The Sadhu when young heard stories of Gods attributes and nature while sitting with saints, or read the descriptions of Him transcribed by those who listened to saints; back then the mind was in-play and produced a fantasy of what God is in reaction to what was heard or read -- or it built up pictures and scenarios and hid them in the subconscious which were revealed as his Sadhana unfolded.

But upon realization all beliefs, all ideas and descriptions are beggared; they are utterly superseded and rendered infantile and miniscule in the face of the Actual Truth. Such beggaring as this renders the mind destitute of understanding, because that experience completely engulfs it in such a way as to cause the bounds of its self-definition to disappear utterly.

After all he that existed before, he who held those ideas, opinions and imaginary descriptions was nothing but a Myth himself. He never existed, there was merely the thought of his existence as "a possible Self" in the Consciousness of the Real indefinable Self.

He being a Myth believes in Myth and subsists by Myth living the myth of separate existence in the presence of The Singular Self Which is Omnipresent.

The experience of The Truth comes suddenly yet the preparation for its inception may take many years or even many life-times, yet the fact remains that when it occurs there must first have been preparation for it. There are hence many visions and belief systems to experience and go through because the whole phantasm leads the mind out of its own tendency to react to (reflect) experience. It is as if the Consciousness itself (its nature being reflective or awareness) must transcend its own process... (reflection).

The reflections or modifications of the imaginary or experiential, cause trillions of modifications and reactions in the mind which the mind itself believes to be real, when in reality they are not. This imaging (yes IMAGING) not only creates the belief system of the Sadhu but also creates the very world in which he finds himself.

This whole Phantasm manifests as the inner and outer Universe/Cosmos, yet that Universe or Cosmos exists within the Consciousness; however that which the Consciousness is conscious of within itself is not necessarily seen as being within anything or even existing, but the fact of the matter is that Consciousness reacts to stimuli in itself by producing thought or the appearance of images in itself (which we call thought/perception) causes the existence of an appearance of multitudinousness being. This is nothing but Omnipresence, whether it is Omnipresent Being or Omnipresent Consciousness there is no difference at all. Hence Atman.

That which is imagined (Imaged, projected), conceived of, believed in, ideated, or notional,  in Consciousness is just that -- existing in the Consciousness as an Idea, as an imaginary, as a Myth. because there can be no other being or thing that is not Consciousness this is born out by the fact that nothing can be known to be, except that that knowing which occurs in the mind-consciousness, be noticed by that which watches the play of that Consciousness within itself.

Yet to try to find the Self of that watcher of the mind images, thoughts and beliefs is an impossibility.

Once upon a time a child heard or saw a description of god and then walked away. Forgetting he ever experienced that, however that image went deep into his subconscious mind and began to cause events of refraction in such a way as to build up a whole Universe of belief and an hierarchy of Godhead with Gods and Archetypes which gave credence to the fantasy of God. There arose there all manner of being and level of existence in such a way as to manifest an ever ascending manifestation of being known as the astral plane, this was and is the place upon and in which that reality was created by the fantasy of Godhead. But he was unaware of what was occurring deep in his subconscious.

There is/was/were gods and angels created within the fantasy who were made responsible for any and all manner of experience and being, as those experience etc were fed into the subconscious by the conscious experience of supposed reality. because the minds very mythological existence depended upon the existence of the pretend God.

An image of God, a belief in that image held in the mind as the benefactor or creator of "me" or "I" requires that the whole phantasm exists in order to fool the Consciousness into thinking it has become the person, Jiva or Soul which is thought to be "Me or "I".

This sounds like saying that God does not exist but it isn't it is saying God is nothing that the mind can possibly imagine or construct from any belief system no matter how elaborate because the Truth about the Self. about God is so fantastic, so impossible, so inexplicable, so utterly mind numbing that even Mythos as i have described it above goes begging by comparison. Yet that Phantasm in the subconscious mind which becomes manifest by degrees as meditation takes one ever deeper, could be thought of as the definition of the form of God, but due to the fact that that definition is ever changing it cannot be said to be the actual god- whereas the light of which either thought images or matter/energy/Cosmos is composed at its heart is nothing other than the same light or Consciousness which notices the existence of anything even to the extent of thought and the Universe. That light is The Actual God .... yet those mythological images etc. go to lead one to The Actual.

Truly i will give a little of what experience has shown...

For several months while chanting with eyes closed my inner attention would be drawn to perceive the chant transformed into an energy which ran around the room filling the devotees with light as this was occurring the timbre and cadence of the chant would rise until the chant was happening in my body of its own accord with me the observer (the chant chanted itself) the voice coming out of my mouth was far different from my own voice and there seemed to be a presence within me that i was aware of but could not fathom each evening that i attended the chants a different experience would occur but always there would be the chant then it would chant itself then the unique experience would occur.

One evening there was a feeling of being expanded which was something like the process of a building tension which built until it was excruciating, suddenly it was as if my mind in an invisible state or form was flung into the sky,  there was a massive feeling of expansion which shot outward from every direction leaving the mind bewildered and numb, then an indescribable bliss/joy arose and i found myself sitting back in the meditation hall full of smiles and tears.

For several months following this there were many more experiences which i will not cover here but one of them was proceeded by a period in which my inner-being was full of light, every time i would sit to meditate as soon as my eyes would close the inner attention would be engulfed in light, but it was as if everything was illumined; everything still existed, there was intense bliss flowing all through my body there were dozens of experiences for days and days.. yet all were merely bathed in light there was no union with light.

I could go and sit anywhere and instantaneously see and feel this utterly intense wonderful state as soon as i closed my eyes at any time i could get up and go about as if i was normal until one day when i awoke i decided to go and sit in the lounge of my home and meditate on how color of every description is nothing but light in a different vibration.

As i sat down and closed my eyes i was immediately drawn into the inner light (when i refer here to "I" i mean the one who up until that day i was used to thinking of as Me.) it was as if i was watching myself from a great height getting smaller and smaller as if i was in an airplane, only the one watching the small one getting smaller had no definition, as i watched that little one shrank until it was a mere black dot upon an infinite expanse of light, then it winked out as if it was turned off like a colored light leaving only pure light at that point my inner attention found it could not look or see anything or anywhere where there was not light there was nothing but light then the small being lost consciousness of the world yet retained or rather existed as pure light-consciousness..

For a time which i could not then or now measure i remained unaware of the world, universe or cosmos.. there was only pure being. infinite formlessness.. After a while from somewhere the thought or idea of existence arose in the light and there suddenly appeared a being composed of the purest golden light imaginable, that being was made of light it appeared in the light and looked toward the watching Consciousness suddenly i became aware of the Universe again. and the being spoke saying "I am Your God" because I exist so do you exist.

I was flung to the floor and awoke as if from a trance.

I packed my bags and left and the following six weeks were full of miracles.. but that is another story..

This experience is the reason i make the claim that there is No God that can be imagined or described, the experience is beyond description the mind cannot do it justice nor can the most eloquent pen.

There is the knowledge that the Consciousness or Light is all that exists, out of that light or Consciousness the most amazing things that can be imagined or experienced are created and made manifest, up to and including the entire manifestation of every and any realm. Loka, Valhalla, or dimension either here or on any astral plane anywhere on any dimension this is true due to the fact that nothing exists but for the light of Consciousness.